I saw you... MIT students, everywhere. I know how shitty this place can be (hell, I'm a 3-time CAP warning champion). I know how shitty one's brain can be. And I know what it's like to be perpetually lonely.
All I can say is please, please never give up on yourself. I promise you there are people around you willing to help, even if it doesn't feel like it. I promise you that it can get better, even if you don't see how. Do what you need to get yourself to a happier state -- see Mental Health, leave MIT (temporarily or permanently), take fewer classes, do something that is just for you. But please, do not give up.
- Recent Crvft