I saw you…or I should say I missed you rather.

A thousand times walking past me in the hallway in building 4 as I talked to other people after lecture about things I can't remember that couldn't possibly have been as important as smiling at you.

Many misinterpreted invitations to be a part of your life, to hang out with you and your friends, to get to know you a little bit better. Gone, all for silly reasons that won't matter at all now that I'm headed thousands of miles away from you.

I saw you in the moonlight under the stars. I saw your smile on a sunny day. Your hair completely soaked in the rain. Almost blown off your bike by gale force winds. I saw you getting drunk with me off your Narwhal and my Fireball. I saw you lying in my arms as hours and days and weeks and months passed us by like we were dreaming. I saw you leave me, and come back to me, and redefine us and refuse to define us what felt like a hundred times because you have no idea what you want and I was just some great guy who happened to meet you when all you needed was a rebound.

I see now that we're friends. And not just according to Facebook. I see us genuinely caring about each other and how we feel. I see our friendship growing over the coming years. I see lots of great times ahead on the rare occasions that our paths through life may randomly cross.

I know you read ISawYou.Mit, because you told me how embarrassed you were when you posted about this other guy and he figured out it was you. I hope you find this. I hope you know it's me. But I'll never admit it, and I'll always have plausible deniability.

See girl, I can be just as awkward as you when I try. I love you. Goodbye.